Wild Desires

‘It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak.
We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about
with drink and sex and ambition
when infinite joy is offered us,
like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum
because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea.
We are far too easily pleased.’
CS Lewis

 I’m a very visual person. Anyone else with me? Recently, I’ve been trying to visualize my future- 1 year from now, 5 years from now, 10 years from now. I’ve been trying to visualize what I want my life to look like. I don’t want to give a basic answer- with kids, in NYC, serving, etc. I want to know the details. What will I be doing for work? How will I be serving? How will I be spending my time?

For the past few weeks I’ve had this nagging feeling inside of me. Conceptually, I know what I want for my future, but the question still stands- what do I need to start doing today to actually get there? My dad always taught me to visualize my goal and to start with the end in mind. Know where you want to go then work backwards to figure out the details.

I’ve been thinking a lot about Donald Miller‘s book “A Million Miles in a Thousand Years.” I yearn to be part of a good story, for my life to read like a good story- even if I am the only one who will read it. Bob Goff is one of my favorite authors and his life reads like a good story. He lives a life full of love, full of whimsy. So this week I started a vision board inspired by these two books and my goals for the future. I’m still dreaming and still praying for the Lord to give me some direction. If I am being honest, I really don’t know what I want my life to look like in 5 or 10 years. I know basics and have multiple ideas, but for once I really don’t know the what I want.

What I do know is that I want my life to be filled with more than just things and memories. I want to leave a legacy and make an impact in the world. I love the quote above by C.S. Lewis. I don’t want to pursue weak desires, I want to pursue deep desires- desires so wild that they could only come true by the grace of His hand.

What are some of your goals- 5 years from now, 10 years from now?

 What are you doing today to get there?

p.s. I just finished another book called Tape Breakers which also inspired my desire to make a positive impact.  It will be released on Amazon on March 1- so if you pre-order the book, you can be one of the first to read it! Trust me, you NEED to pre-order this book! You don’t want to miss out- it’s that good. I’ll be sharing more about the book soon!

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